It all ends here .

          Taray ng title! Parang Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows lang! Anyway, I know it's quite funny to read this post. Sino ba naman ang di matatawa eh just last Oct. 30 parang puro kilig yung pinagsasabi ko. I didn't know ako nlang pla yung nkakaramdam ng ganun. Dito ko na gustong tapusin lahat tutal wala naman na pala tlagang ppntahan yung pinagpapaguran kong magwork na relasyon eh. Dito ko nalang ilalahad ng nararamdaman ko kasi alam kong wala namang makakabasa. Sya? Hndi nya to mababasa noh! Mabasa nya man, he won't even bother to care 'cause he's very busy with his life now. Masayang masaya na yun kasi nag-eenjoy sya sa pag-inom from dusk 'til dawn. Makakapagdota na sya ng wantusawa! At higit sa lahat, makakahanap na sya ng iba. I'm hurting, why wouldn't I? Tinatanong pa ba yun? Mahal na mahal ko kaya yung mokong na yun! Kagaya nga ng sinabi ko sa mga previous posts ko, sobrang dami ko ng sakripisyo para sa taong yun! Pinaglaban ko sya sa lahat! Pinili ko sya kahit alam kong mahihirapan ako sa magiging buhay ko sa kanya. I never claim to be a perfect girlfriend, no one is! Pero alam ko sa sarili ko na ginawa ko lahat, better yet binigay ko lahat to satisfy his needs even his wants. OO teh! Minsan parang pakiramdam ko nga ang bata ko namang sugar mommy. SYET! Ganun tlaga kapag nagmamahal ka teh! Kahit hindi mo na tlaga kaya pinipilit mo pa rin yung sarili mo na baka pwede pa... na baka this time pwedeng mag-work pa kaso dumating na ko sa point ng sukdulan. I was mad... really mad! But I realized, I will never be able to move on kung may mararamdaman pa rin ako towards him, yup, kasama yung galit jan. I forgive him for what he did wrong but I will never ever forget that he did it to me.


          Marami-rami na ring utang tong tao na to saken eh but I will not seek revenge, para ano? Hindi worth it. For the past 1 year and 5 months na dapat mag si-six months na this Nov. 8, I've been faithful to him. I turned down my friend's invitation to hang out because he doesn't want me to. I said no to a lot of opportunities because I don't want to compromise our relationship. Those damn things are the things that I regret the most for doing them for that person who doesn't even know how to value my presence and appreciate all of my efforts.

          You might be asking yourself the reason why I came to this point after all. Lahat tayo may hangganan, lahat kinaya ko naman eh pero nung nahuli ko na nakikipag-flirt sya sa iba. Yun ang di ko pinaka-kinaya. I asked him several times if he has something to tell me, he kept saying none. I let it passed by kc hndi pa ganun ka strong ung hawak kong evidence pero nung may nkita na ko na tlagang magpapatunay na he's cheating on me, I confronted him...crying! (Insert sob here) He kept lying despite all the facts that I have. He kept telling me that he loves me? Bket? Para ano? Kasi di sya type nung babae at di sinasakyan yung trip nya kaya he's still holding me para kahit anong mangyari may sasalo sa kanya! KAPAL! SYET! Ang wrinkles! Sabi nga nya dun sa post nya sa girl "Sana kapag bumitaw na ko may tamang taong sasalo sa akin, nsa mali kasi eh". Tigas ng mukha! Sige nga, kayo nga mag-decide kung ano motibo nya kung bakit nya yun kailangan ipost dun sa babae? Hiyang hiya naman ako dun sa part na nasa mali daw sya. Hahahahahaaaaa! Gawain nya naman na tlaga ang mambabae at manloko, most of his friends and relatives warned me about it, still I trusted him! I even allowed him to go out with his friends to have some drinks. I even let him play DoTA with his barkada, I even play DoTA para lang masakyan trip nila and this is what I deserve for doing those things for him? I don't deserve this... never will I ever deserve this!