Tuesday, November 20, 2012

I hate that I Loved you so ...


               It's been exactly 15 days now since we officially/finally called it off. It's been the hardest and loneliest 15 days of my life since I met you. Yeah! Laugh now! The strong woman you used to know had 15 weakest days of her life because of you! Those were the most miserable days of my life well not to mention those times when we're together because they're also miserable but I love how to feel miserable with you and it's not the case this time. Well, I'm not going to post here just to flatter you of how miserable my life was since we part ways. Well, you might somehow feel flattered because the following things I'm going to reveal are those crazy things I did when there were still "us". Things that I did just to profess my love for you. eew! Well, there will be some things that I'll be keeping to myself just to save myself from total humiliation and after all, I still have the word "privacy" in my vocabulary.


** Left my boyfriend of 2 years and 9 months just to choose him over him. (pronoun chaos) I was in a relationship before he came into my life and to be honest with you, I wasn't planning to make things so serious with the latter but because of his constant effort to make me feel loved and special, I broke up with my previous boyfriend and decided to go to the next level with him.

** Walked from Sta. Mesa, Manila to Antipolo Church for the "Alay Lakad" thingy wearing my newly-brought doll shoes which gave up just after we came back to his place. Can you effin' imagine how long it took us to arrived at the church? Gosh! I really bitched him the whole time! And the reason why I fell for him is because of his patience which is as long as the distance from Sta. Mesa to Antipolo. He never left me nor embarrassed me after all the bitchiness in me. Where have this person gone? (Insert sob here) :'(

** Waited for him for almost 3 hours in SM Manila just to be with him in a short while. I was so stupid just that! I even cried when he arrived because it was so unbelievable of me to do that thing which I've never done my whole life! (Tungunumu) 

** Pleased his friends by being with them every inuman session without bitching around despite having to go to work the very next day! It was not a go Dutch baby! It's most of the time my treat

** The only girl in the circle to drink with him and his friends "on the street" while seeing people pass by looking at you and you see their eyes saying "whatta bitch"

** Play "tong-its" with his relatives/kababata from dusk 'til dawn so they won't say that I don't know how to blend in.

** Skipped classes in law school just to spend more quality time to bicker with him (wasted times). I skipped important events in your life just to stay with him and all you get to do is to fight then kiss and make-up. Whatta life!

** Say no to my friends' invitation to go out with them our so he won't get mad at me. Swear! Some of my friends even almost cursed me because I chose him over them! He's such a jealous little fatass who doesn't trust anyone!


** Faked my absences at work just to join him with his friends in an out-of-town trip. I didn't regret this one! 

** Fight with my mom every single time because she won't accept him to be my boyfriend (guess, she's right all this time). I always argue and this disagree with my mom but this time I must give credit to her.

** Pay the bills for the two of us so I can share special moment with him (Eating out, Poracay outing, Big Rock Resort, ACE Water spa, Etc.) ++ Such a fine young sugar mommy!

** Played DOTA just to ride on his trips and of course to have bonding moments with him so I won't have to complain that he's spending all his time in front of the computer (Gamer Girl)

** Cooked for him, his family and friends whenever there's an occasion. Yaya lang ang peg?! Not really :)) More of a wifey thingy. I just melt whwnever his friends/relatives compliment me after tasting the dish I prepared and boastfully say "Swerte mo naman Mamark, sarap ng luto ni Jhaycee" I heard this first when I cooked "dynamite" for their pulutan during his 25th birthday last year. Not to mention how he craved for my adobo ^^

** Bought a bit expensive rubber shoes for him to pursue his passion in basketball because I'm just supportive like that.

** Lost my voice just to cheer him whenever he plays basketball and don't forget that I earn money using my voice. Needless to say that I piss the other team with my irritation voice teasing them to back off! I'm awesome like that!

** Do crazy things just to please him and satisfy his wants and needs (I'll leave the details with your imagination) ++ Insert evil laugh here

               People really gets crazy whenever they fall in love. Even the most shy person will do embarrassing stuffs for love! No kidding! I've seen a lot of them! I'm no excuse, I was struck by this stupid feeling but I will never ever regret doing all this things because I know I'm just a person who knows how to love truly, madly, deeply. PAK!


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